As I discussed in final week’s teenage diary I acquired a bit hit or miss with the previous diary writing and so we leap ahead, previous the clean pages, proper by way of to the tip of November, and it’s the eve of my 16th birthday. Get pleasure from!
Thursday 24th November
I do know I haven’t written something for ages, however I believed this is able to be a very good time to restart seeing because it’s my birthday tomorrow. I’m not making a complete dedication although. I’ve determined to solely write when something vital has occurred, as a result of generally I’ve days the place nothing attention-grabbing ever occurs. So I see no level in writing down a load of crap.
Friday 25th November
My 16th birthday. What a day to recollect! Tonight I met Les on the bus cease as a result of an entire load of us had been happening the pub. Properly just a few of us went in after which we went to Timothy’s. They’d organised a shock get together for me. It was actually candy, they’d adorned the place and made me a cake with candles. OK so I did get drunk, however absolutely I used to be entitled to seeing because it was my birthday. Les acquired drunk as nicely in order you possibly can think about we had been throughout each other. He had his arms down my pants and I had my hand down his. As you possibly can think about, we had been each feeling one another so much. I by no means misplaced my virginity although and I’m fairly pleased with that although I’m now the authorized age. Denise, Claudia, Sheila and Mary flared me, it was actually humorous, other than the stuff in my eye. Tommy purchased me a teddy bear, it was so candy.
Wednesday seventh December
Went spherical Terence’s home and Terence gave Les some drink. Clearly he acquired drunk and he was threatening to kill himself. it was actually scaring me. When he went to stroll me residence, I informed him to return as a result of he was in no match state. I later acquired phoned up by Denise asking what was occurring. Les got here on and stated goodbye as a result of he was going to kill himself. I hung up and he later phoned again to apologise. I can’t be doing with this. He’s so possessive. What am I going to do if I select to dump him.
Thursday eighth December
I break up up with Les right now. It was laborious however I needed to after final night time. He was crying and he gave me my ring again. A lot for him saying he’d maintain it even when we break up up. I went spherical Sheila’s and cried my eyes out. Although I feel it’s for the very best I’m actually upset about it. Apparently he went spherical to Claudia’s home crying, he needed some photos from the get together. I’m a bit aggravated about that, however I suppose he simply desires a reminiscence. All I’ve acquired of him is a extremely grotty image, the rabbit and the necklace.
Monday 12th December
I’ve slashed my wrists. I actually don’t know what’s taking place to me. I’m simply so depressed. Perhaps I’ve nonetheless acquired emotions for Les, I don’t know. I feel it’s a mix of examination stress and feeling actually lonely. I went spherical to Sheila’s and simply utterly broke down. She had a extremely lengthy speak and reckons I ought to get counseling. I actually don’t suppose it’s that dangerous. It simply felt actually good to have the ability to speak to somebody. I discover it laborious to speak to individuals after which it by no means comes out proper.
Friday 16th December
I came upon right now that Denise is now going out with Les. You wouldn’t consider how lower up about it I’m. It’s not that I nonetheless fancy Les, it’s simply that I really feel so lonely and that nobody desires me round any extra. I’ve lower my wrists once more, this time worse. I couldn’t cease the bleeding, so I bandaged it. I went to youth membership and needed to face Les and Denise. Denise reckons I’m not speaking to her. I wish to although, it’s simply I really feel so uncomfortable. I acquired residence and cried myself to sleep.
Saturday 17th December
I came upon right now that Terence fancies me. Les phoned me as much as ask me out for him. I stated I’d give it some thought, however to get him to cellphone me. He phoned me and I informed him I’d give it some thought if he acquired it straight with Petunia first, as a result of she nonetheless likes him. Les phoned once more later to see if I’d made my thoughts up. I stated I’d meet Terence on the bus cease at 7.45 and I’d inform him then. I met him there and he informed me he’d settled it with Petunia. I informed him I’d exit with him if I wasn’t simply one other one on his record and that I didn’t wish to be handled like shit. He agreed. So I’m gong out with him. He got here spherical with Denise and Les while we had been babysitting. They stayed about 2 hours then he kissed me goodnight. I actually hope he treats me proper.
Tuesday 20th December
Terence wasn’t on the bus cease. Les informed me that he needed to depart early so wasn’t capable of anticipate me. I used to be fairly upset about that truly as a result of I’d been trying ahead to seeing him all day.
Wednesday 21st December
I went and had my ear pierced down the underside once more. It seems nicely sensible. It harm like hell although. What made it worse was that he informed me simply earlier than he was going to do it so I knew it was coming. Terence phoned and all his mates had been there. He saved placing them on to say hello to me, it was nicely embarrassing. I swear they had been taking the piss.
Thursday 22nd December
Terence phoned and I feel 2 of his mates had been there. I spoke to one in every of them, I can’t bear in mind who it was. Anyway, I went again to chatting with Terence and I heard him say within the background, “she sounds very fuckable, I’d give her 5 minutes of my time” And Terence stated, “I’d give her 5 hours.” He’s so candy. I’m glad I’ve appeared to make an impression on his mates, I’m glad I haven’t given him a photograph but, I swear they wouldn’t like me if they may see me.
Friday 23rd December
I phoned Terence and he appeared actually quiet. I feel it was as a result of he was at residence and he didn’t need anybody else listening to him being delicate over the cellphone. I choose it when he telephones and his mates are there as a result of then the dialog by no means dies.
Saturday 24th December
Terence phoned, this time his mates had been there. Actually I began speaking to Stuzi considering it was him. I can’t inform the distinction. I had fairly a very good chat with Stuzi, I’ve acquired on his good aspect by liking Blur. He reckons he’s fallen in love with Sheila simply from her voice and desires to jot down to her. Rowley desires to jot down to Claudia. What am I, a courting company? Went over to Sheila’s and had a beer with Claudia and Timothy. Let’s simply say Claudia was jolly. You would inform Timothy didn’t actually wish to be there. Me and him had been taking part in with Josse and calling him Damian.
Sunday 25th December
Xmas pressies thus far:
- Navy blue denims
- Tape deck and radio
- Silver cross necklace
- Black leather-based bag
- Denim blue boxers
- Mini Exclamation
- Cuddly reindeer
- Present vouchers for Topshop and Miss Selfridge
- REM album
Les phoned me to want me a cheerful Christmas. It was an actual shock however I really had a extremely good chat with him. He’s very easy to get together with. Then later he phoned me as much as rub it in that East 17 had been number one. I’m beginning to fear that he would possibly like me once more. Twice in in the future.
Wednesday 28th December
Stayed spherical Sheila’s the night time and he or she phoned Gulliver up from the cellphone field, so I made a decision to cellphone Terence, as a shock. He’s by no means very talkative on the cellphone and I wouldn’t say I’m actually however I’ve to be if he’s on the cellphone as a result of he solely actually solutions my questions, he doesn’t begin a dialog up himself. I don’t prefer it when he doesn’t speak a lot as a result of I really feel like he doesn’t like me any extra and that he’s hiding one thing from me. Sheila’s going up to stick with Gulliver on Friday. I want I used to be going to see Terence. Oh nicely I suppose he’ll be again quickly – I hope.
Thursday 29th December
I went procuring with Sheila right now and spent about fifty 5 kilos. I purchased a pair of knee excessive boots for thirty kilos, an actual cut price, a cream sparkly brief sleeved high, and a brief black satin skirt. The skirt’s very nice, nevertheless it doesn’t match me too good. It’s too huge around the waist but tight around the bum so it wrinkles on the high. I had to purchase it although as a result of it’s attractive. It seems alright if I tug it a couple of bit and get it into form. I’m lacking Terence a lot that I used to be fascinated with him and couldn’t get to sleep.
Friday 30th December
I’m lacking Terence a lot. From since I’ve been going out with him I’ve solely seen him 3 times, however that’s sufficient for me to really feel that we’ve acquired one thing particular. A few of the issues he does is simply so cute and particular person. The best way he says sorry like a bit of little one is so candy it brings tears to my eyes. I can’t anticipate hm to return residence, every time that’s. All of it relies upon when his dad goes and picks him up. He informed me his mum had invited me to go and stick with them one weekend. I’d actually like that however whether or not Mum and Dad would let me is one other matter. It could be identical to them in the event that they didn’t. Typical.
Waaaaaah and identical to that my 1994 teenage diary is over!!!! It’s actually been a rollercoaster journey, and purchased again each some good and dangerous recollections. We actually be taught from our errors, proper?!? I actually hope you may have loved it as a lot as I’ve, I’ve completely cherished sharing it with you all, although a bit of piece of me has died with embarrassment each time I hit the publish button!
Bear in mind I nonetheless have my December 1993 extracts to share, which will probably be printed at the start of December so maintain an eye fixed out for that.
However for now, it’s over and out from teenage me x
*names have been modified to guard the not so harmless
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Becky Stafferton is a full time blogger over on her web site The Artwork of Wholesome Dwelling, mum of two and authorized Queen of the hashtags. She regularly strives to advertise a sensible, sustainable and optimistic picture of lead a wholesome life. When she’s not writing she may be discovered swigging Prosecco from the bottle, operating by way of muddy puddles, making lists of lists, having a very good previous moan, scoffing flapjacks and squatting like her life is dependent upon it.
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